I’m scared of change.
I’m scared of falling behind, I’m scared of not knowing what I’m doing in life.
Most the time, we as people, have no idea what we are doing with our lives. We work so hard to achieve these goals and along the way we get lost.
My sophomore year of high school I thought I knew what I wanted to do in life. I wanted to be a doctor and change the world. But going through college I’ve realized being a doctor is not my passion, being a writer is. I have had to ask myself over and over again, “Are you driven by money or happiness?” and the answer is different every time. I know I will get worried faces from my family when they hear of my change. “You want to write stuff?” ,they’ll say, “Like stories? That makes no money.” But it’s more than stories.
I don’t want to struggle in life, but I also don’t want to waste my life away on something I don’t love. I’m afraid of change. Do I change my major after working towards another? Do I tell my family and feel like I’ve disappointed them? I don’t know.
But there comes a time in life when you have to step back and think about yourself. I now find myself asking, “What is good for Alyssa? What will make me happier?” This is hard to answer, but I need to fight the fear of falling behind and fight the fear of change and go for it because in the end I will have myself. And the career path and the major I choose is for me. Not anyone else. So don’t worry if you don’t know what you’re doing. It’s okay to not know, just focus on yourself, motivate yourself, and ultimately, be happy.
But that perfect time would never come, my friend. You will wait and wait and wait and you will reach the end of your life with nothing left but regret.
The point here is to stop waiting for the perfect moment. Whatever you want, pursue it now. Take action towards your goals now, in this very instance because life is too short to wait for the perfect moment.